If I seek information I am asked "what race are you"? If I fill out a job application, I am asked "what race are you"? My answer to this ongoing RACISTS QUESTION. I AM OF THE HUMAN RACE. I DON'T HAVE TO IDENTIFY MY RACE OR EXPLAIN MYSELF TO ANYONE, NOR WILL I. Yeah, it fucken pisses me off!! And I don't care who likes it or who doesn't. I AM SICK OF THAT FUCKEN QUESTION, WHAT DOES IT MATTER? It matters because people are judged and viewed by their race. This is why "DISCRIMINATION" IS SO EASY TO TARGET AND AT THE SAME TIME ENDORSE RACISM WITH JOB APPLICAITONS. JUDGING WHERE A PERSON LIVES, IF YOU DESERVE MONEY AND SUCCESS. EMPLOYERS DO NOT SEEK TO HIRE, THEY SEEK TO WEED OUT. Employers are more likely to hire white people as leads or managers. TARGET STORE IS VERY DISCRIMINATING, NOT ONE PERSON AT A TOP LEVEL MANAGEMENT POSITION IS A PERSON OF COLOR. EVERYONE IS WHITE! IT'S LIKE THIS ACROSS THE SPECTRUM OF COPROATIONS AND SMALL BUISNESS'S. Many Koreans and Chinese have the same fucked up behavior of Mexican, Latino people but they will hire Mexicans to do their labor because Korean men are to fucken lazy too do anything that would have them bend their ass over and lift a box.
Since the day I was born I was discriminated against my skin color, my attitude, my personality and just paying the price for being me. There are many advantages to being an older woman now, which I will touch on later, but lets start from here. The RACSIM and DISCRIMINATION RUN SO DEEP that my own parents couldn't understand it to explain it to me as I grew older and what to watch out for. They couldn't explain it because they didn't have anyone to explain it to them of the abuse and why AMERICA IS SET UP TO BENEFIT THE WHITE MAN. A bigger problem was my parents didn't have a VOICE to defend themself, (which people of color spend 25% of their life doing). That VOICE DEVELOPS SOMETIMES OUT OF NECESSITY, SOMETIMES FROM EDUCATION AND SOMETIMES FROM BEING FED UP WITH ALL THE BULLSHIT AND THE FUCKED UP REMARKS, BUT PRIMARILY FROM SELF IDENTITY! If you know who you are bad and good and don't live in DENIAL AS YOU GROW YOU WILL FIND YOUR VOICE TO DEFEND YOURSELF.
I usually prefer to keep silent of my personal life but I am going to share something my sisters, which you can relate to, so you know you are not alone. Finding your VOICE IS MOST CRUICIAL IN LIFE1 Sometimes its hard to STRIKE BACK being in the moment of needing to defend yourself with WHITE PEOPLE, especially white women because they are the biggest CUNTS ON THE PLANET. Although recently I have experienced many Korean bitches that have become a problem in everyday society. Let me begin with family politics because it usually starts here. I was three years old when my parents left EAST LOS ANGELES, and moved to a small town still within Los Angeles. My father side is Tongva and my mother was born in El Paso Texas, but I have a very large family on both sides and being labeled MEXICAN is not a race per se' its of many cultures across the globe from centuries before me. There is some EURPOEAN ANCESTORY within our family genes. As a matter of fact there is some JAPANESE from the 7th generation of a great grandmother because skin and hair skip generations, my cousin and her father have Japanese eyes and fair skin. Because of these genes these relatives are viewed as half white and I am proud to say they are NOT!
The biggest mistake my parents made was not understanding how to discipline us kids which is common, more than not because no one teaches parents how to raise children, you must figure it out as you go. In addition to avoiding making the same mistakes their parents made. I believe there is good intentions, but ALL PARENTS FAIL, AS IT IS A PART OF BEING A PARENT. Another mistake is parents both need to be on the same page with supporting each other and communication has to be consistent. My mother took on more of the responsibility since my father took so long to grow up, as men do which was UNFAIR to her. My father was a good man don't get me wrong but he could be a bastard when he choose to be and Vietnam had him emotionally fucked up since the white man is a coward who refuses to fight his own wars. The white man always uses men of color being the MURDERER THAT HE IS in WAR! For that my father depended emotionally on my mother too much and that hurt the marriage. Otherwise I had a good up bringing but there were human flaws within the dynamics of the family setting that set my personality into developing quickly and my emotions took shape because of racism and indifference within the family unit. ANGRYGIRL FEMINSIT GREW because of the ABUSES OF THE WHITE RACE imposing on me as I walked through life and tolerating all their shit. I will say in all fairness I have come across a few whites that are decent humans not perfect because all of us have human flaws, but I place my TRUST IN NO ONE, REGARDLESS OF RACE. I have learned and I trust only myself, the rest must be earned.
My skin color was darker than my siblings so I took the blame for many things that were not my fault, if my younger brother was hurt, if something broke such as a glass object. My wicked step sisters bossing me around and giving me orders like a slave. My fathers negative attitude toward me when I worked at creative projects nothing was ever good enough. The lack of moral support was NEVER THERE and that which is FREE. Education and Creative Arts, such as music was never encouraged, but I learned on my own and went to college much later in life only to realize these INSTITUTIONS are just as RACISTS and filled with INDIFFERENCE just like the family unit. At the age of 22 I had three kids and raised them alone. Searching for work I spent most of my time fighting with employers because of sexual harassment, racism, and discrimination because of my skin color. It was my fault - not having enough experience or education, which was the excuse to deny me a job. Or simply because that person was intimidated with my strong personality as white people sometimes are. However, its when a woman's skin is darker than the white female is when people (especially men) think it's allowed to mistreat, abuse or simply shit on me because the color of my skin. Men of color behave just as abusive toward dark skin women more than they would if I were a white skinned female. At least they did in my time. What hurt me was because I didn't have a VOICE to fight back or know anything like I do now, and it does make a huge difference. Knowledge is power.
PROUD OF WHO I AM I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT OTHERS THINK!
See there are many problems within families but the MEXICAN families pick on this subject from observation not understanding why? When males are born they are placed at the top and when females are born they are placed at the bottom. Although it is women in the family who work twice as hard as the men, but are given no credit or disregarded all together. Its like this in all cultures not just Mexican families, but some members are IGNORANT about the situation and will talk shit of how the males are favored and lazy, but they won't point out the problems of white males. And there are many WHITE MEN who are NOT WORTH A FUCK! I don't have the time to defend and explain ALL THE STUPIDTY AND IGNORANCE that goes into these dynamics, but I understand why?
However, my parents favored their first son and my father made it clear I wasn't important. Verbally and emotionally, and with that is why my behavior rebelled. My mother singled me out with pet names, no else, just me, it was until I told her to STOP calling me those pet names because it's RACIST. I was never offended by it because it was never said to me in a derogatory tone, but I needed her to understand and she did respect it. However, I wasn't going to tolerate this favoritism or indifference and be treated badly because of who I am. I was better than my parents son - I AM SMARTER THAN HIM - I AM FASTER THAN HE - I AM MORE RUTHLESS. As these experiences grow so did my perspective of people and the world I lived in because of family problems and life's hardship. In life you either fight to defend yourself and in time you will grow OR you will be eaten. I wasn't about to be eaten, so I made it clear to my fathers son, he was last as "I AM" oldest and he was not important to me!
I made my presence clear. It takes great will to be a CAPRICORN we are fragile like anyone, with resilience and ambition, in time Saturn teaches us discipline and Capi's learn from the pain and hard lessons as we grow up and grow older. As I grew so did my VOICE, I recognized many things. Capricorns are highest on the tree of life and death and with that is why I now understand my strength and intuitive nature to people and I REFUSE TO APOLOGIZE FOR ANY OF IT, especially of WHO I AM! Capricorns intuition is vital and develops at a young age which mine did. I just knew things before they happened, but being a child I was naive to many things in life because I needed to learn and grow. I was naive to predators of all sorts and homosexuals being subjected to both. I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY OF IT. People in general try hard to make me feel bad about who I am, I don't. I am proud of myself and love myself to much. I DON'T NEED VALIDATION OR APPROVAL.
This is an advantage of being an older woman, now that I have walked over the mountain top I can clearly see my path as I continue on my journey. As the world burns down around me and the "WHITE MAN" continues to MURDER the human race killing innocent lives I will continue to grow in spirit - in mind and in soul. My destination is greater and has a path of its own that I am walking. I have made many mistakes as "ALL HUMANS" do, but I am at a point in my life I don't need anyone anymore, like I did when I was young. I don't need a man to fill complete, but it would be nice to have him around and share life with. I don't need a best friend but a twin would be a great back up to share my secrets with. My parents are dead and did the best to their ability and gave me more than I deserve they were good people despite their human flaws. I do miss them very much. Not so much my siblings as we never had anything in common anyways and they knew less than I did growing up. Plus my views have changed how I see life. As for my fathers sons weakness and insolence I have no patients for. As he was a favored child who is viewed as a white male in society (although he is not) he too has enemies, as for the other son he will die alone feeling like an outcast.
The ROOT of the family has been severed due to betrayal and abuse of all sorts most of which has been the primary infection of the white race plaguing people of color. Politicians are GUILTY of tearing families apart and because of our lack of understanding and knowledge of the WHITE MANS EVIL we have fallen into their traps and added to the pain. As a Capricorn woman my VOICE IS STRONGER THAN EVER and I will not be at the WILL of any man, especially the WHITE MAN! Even I will out LIVE TRUMP!
Since the day I was born I was discriminated against my skin color, my attitude, my personality and just paying the price for being me. There are many advantages to being an older woman now, which I will touch on later, but lets start from here. The RACSIM and DISCRIMINATION RUN SO DEEP that my own parents couldn't understand it to explain it to me as I grew older and what to watch out for. They couldn't explain it because they didn't have anyone to explain it to them of the abuse and why AMERICA IS SET UP TO BENEFIT THE WHITE MAN. A bigger problem was my parents didn't have a VOICE to defend themself, (which people of color spend 25% of their life doing). That VOICE DEVELOPS SOMETIMES OUT OF NECESSITY, SOMETIMES FROM EDUCATION AND SOMETIMES FROM BEING FED UP WITH ALL THE BULLSHIT AND THE FUCKED UP REMARKS, BUT PRIMARILY FROM SELF IDENTITY! If you know who you are bad and good and don't live in DENIAL AS YOU GROW YOU WILL FIND YOUR VOICE TO DEFEND YOURSELF.
I usually prefer to keep silent of my personal life but I am going to share something my sisters, which you can relate to, so you know you are not alone. Finding your VOICE IS MOST CRUICIAL IN LIFE1 Sometimes its hard to STRIKE BACK being in the moment of needing to defend yourself with WHITE PEOPLE, especially white women because they are the biggest CUNTS ON THE PLANET. Although recently I have experienced many Korean bitches that have become a problem in everyday society. Let me begin with family politics because it usually starts here. I was three years old when my parents left EAST LOS ANGELES, and moved to a small town still within Los Angeles. My father side is Tongva and my mother was born in El Paso Texas, but I have a very large family on both sides and being labeled MEXICAN is not a race per se' its of many cultures across the globe from centuries before me. There is some EURPOEAN ANCESTORY within our family genes. As a matter of fact there is some JAPANESE from the 7th generation of a great grandmother because skin and hair skip generations, my cousin and her father have Japanese eyes and fair skin. Because of these genes these relatives are viewed as half white and I am proud to say they are NOT!
The biggest mistake my parents made was not understanding how to discipline us kids which is common, more than not because no one teaches parents how to raise children, you must figure it out as you go. In addition to avoiding making the same mistakes their parents made. I believe there is good intentions, but ALL PARENTS FAIL, AS IT IS A PART OF BEING A PARENT. Another mistake is parents both need to be on the same page with supporting each other and communication has to be consistent. My mother took on more of the responsibility since my father took so long to grow up, as men do which was UNFAIR to her. My father was a good man don't get me wrong but he could be a bastard when he choose to be and Vietnam had him emotionally fucked up since the white man is a coward who refuses to fight his own wars. The white man always uses men of color being the MURDERER THAT HE IS in WAR! For that my father depended emotionally on my mother too much and that hurt the marriage. Otherwise I had a good up bringing but there were human flaws within the dynamics of the family setting that set my personality into developing quickly and my emotions took shape because of racism and indifference within the family unit. ANGRYGIRL FEMINSIT GREW because of the ABUSES OF THE WHITE RACE imposing on me as I walked through life and tolerating all their shit. I will say in all fairness I have come across a few whites that are decent humans not perfect because all of us have human flaws, but I place my TRUST IN NO ONE, REGARDLESS OF RACE. I have learned and I trust only myself, the rest must be earned.
My skin color was darker than my siblings so I took the blame for many things that were not my fault, if my younger brother was hurt, if something broke such as a glass object. My wicked step sisters bossing me around and giving me orders like a slave. My fathers negative attitude toward me when I worked at creative projects nothing was ever good enough. The lack of moral support was NEVER THERE and that which is FREE. Education and Creative Arts, such as music was never encouraged, but I learned on my own and went to college much later in life only to realize these INSTITUTIONS are just as RACISTS and filled with INDIFFERENCE just like the family unit. At the age of 22 I had three kids and raised them alone. Searching for work I spent most of my time fighting with employers because of sexual harassment, racism, and discrimination because of my skin color. It was my fault - not having enough experience or education, which was the excuse to deny me a job. Or simply because that person was intimidated with my strong personality as white people sometimes are. However, its when a woman's skin is darker than the white female is when people (especially men) think it's allowed to mistreat, abuse or simply shit on me because the color of my skin. Men of color behave just as abusive toward dark skin women more than they would if I were a white skinned female. At least they did in my time. What hurt me was because I didn't have a VOICE to fight back or know anything like I do now, and it does make a huge difference. Knowledge is power.
PROUD OF WHO I AM I DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT OTHERS THINK!
See there are many problems within families but the MEXICAN families pick on this subject from observation not understanding why? When males are born they are placed at the top and when females are born they are placed at the bottom. Although it is women in the family who work twice as hard as the men, but are given no credit or disregarded all together. Its like this in all cultures not just Mexican families, but some members are IGNORANT about the situation and will talk shit of how the males are favored and lazy, but they won't point out the problems of white males. And there are many WHITE MEN who are NOT WORTH A FUCK! I don't have the time to defend and explain ALL THE STUPIDTY AND IGNORANCE that goes into these dynamics, but I understand why?
However, my parents favored their first son and my father made it clear I wasn't important. Verbally and emotionally, and with that is why my behavior rebelled. My mother singled me out with pet names, no else, just me, it was until I told her to STOP calling me those pet names because it's RACIST. I was never offended by it because it was never said to me in a derogatory tone, but I needed her to understand and she did respect it. However, I wasn't going to tolerate this favoritism or indifference and be treated badly because of who I am. I was better than my parents son - I AM SMARTER THAN HIM - I AM FASTER THAN HE - I AM MORE RUTHLESS. As these experiences grow so did my perspective of people and the world I lived in because of family problems and life's hardship. In life you either fight to defend yourself and in time you will grow OR you will be eaten. I wasn't about to be eaten, so I made it clear to my fathers son, he was last as "I AM" oldest and he was not important to me!
I made my presence clear. It takes great will to be a CAPRICORN we are fragile like anyone, with resilience and ambition, in time Saturn teaches us discipline and Capi's learn from the pain and hard lessons as we grow up and grow older. As I grew so did my VOICE, I recognized many things. Capricorns are highest on the tree of life and death and with that is why I now understand my strength and intuitive nature to people and I REFUSE TO APOLOGIZE FOR ANY OF IT, especially of WHO I AM! Capricorns intuition is vital and develops at a young age which mine did. I just knew things before they happened, but being a child I was naive to many things in life because I needed to learn and grow. I was naive to predators of all sorts and homosexuals being subjected to both. I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANY OF IT. People in general try hard to make me feel bad about who I am, I don't. I am proud of myself and love myself to much. I DON'T NEED VALIDATION OR APPROVAL.
This is an advantage of being an older woman, now that I have walked over the mountain top I can clearly see my path as I continue on my journey. As the world burns down around me and the "WHITE MAN" continues to MURDER the human race killing innocent lives I will continue to grow in spirit - in mind and in soul. My destination is greater and has a path of its own that I am walking. I have made many mistakes as "ALL HUMANS" do, but I am at a point in my life I don't need anyone anymore, like I did when I was young. I don't need a man to fill complete, but it would be nice to have him around and share life with. I don't need a best friend but a twin would be a great back up to share my secrets with. My parents are dead and did the best to their ability and gave me more than I deserve they were good people despite their human flaws. I do miss them very much. Not so much my siblings as we never had anything in common anyways and they knew less than I did growing up. Plus my views have changed how I see life. As for my fathers sons weakness and insolence I have no patients for. As he was a favored child who is viewed as a white male in society (although he is not) he too has enemies, as for the other son he will die alone feeling like an outcast.
The ROOT of the family has been severed due to betrayal and abuse of all sorts most of which has been the primary infection of the white race plaguing people of color. Politicians are GUILTY of tearing families apart and because of our lack of understanding and knowledge of the WHITE MANS EVIL we have fallen into their traps and added to the pain. As a Capricorn woman my VOICE IS STRONGER THAN EVER and I will not be at the WILL of any man, especially the WHITE MAN! Even I will out LIVE TRUMP!
